Thoughts During a Pandemic

Dear Diary,

I am not sure what to say at a time of such uncertainty.  There is a virus that is plaguing our world, and thousands of people are dying.  I saw this coming as I teach children in China, and that is where it hit first. They were calling it the Wuhan virus because it started in that province.  Then it spread and school was cancelled. People were being asked to stay indoors. Now, it has come to my country. Somehow no one saw this coming. No one was prepared.

Now we are being asked to stay home.  Is it really so bad being stuck at home?  We are not called to war. When I first began this, there were so many positive things that I wanted to share, but now I am not so sure.  I wanted to say:

Enjoy your family members.  

Get outside.

Love your pets.

Care for your neighbors.

Bake more.

Start a garden.

But since then my feelings have both stayed the same, and have become different.  I am tired of not seeing other people. I am overwhelmed with my feelings, and the feelings of those around me.  I fear that my family may become sick since my husband has to work on gas pumps covered in germs. My oldest son has a heart defect which makes him more likely to die if he contracts COVID-19.  That is what they are calling it now. He only has ¾ of his lung capacity. We are told that if we stay home then we can save the human race. Others worry about the economy.

At least I am not alone.  Though homeschooling has not changed completely with my four children, it is more difficult staying home all of the time.  There are no field trips, no friends, no outings. But at least I do still have them. I have human touch. My heart goes out to those that are alone at this time. 

I hope that we can all make the best of it.  I dream that this virus can be slowed down, and possibly even cured.  I pray to God every day that as a human race, we can find love, beauty, and healing in this time.  

Amen.

Or Sincerely Yours,

Leiloni